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need to be selfish? 0

i have been so mean or so cruel to myself. what have i done for myself in order to more improve my status? am i an altruist? why did i feel guilty, when i recognized that i couldn’t do anything for my russian students today? if i am altruistic, how can i make an excuse about the fact that i am not courageous enough to fight against something wrong or something irrational? pretty surely, it means that i am not an altruist. then, who am i? if i believe that people like me only because i rarely say “NO,” then i am crazy or paranoiac?

나는 12년전과 똑같은 바로 그 사람인 것 같다. 아무런 변화도 발전도 없는 … W의 편지에 나오는 것과 같은 …

… 성격적으로 네가 굉장히 좋은 사람이지만 너 자신에게는 얼마나 좋은 사람인지 생각하고 너도 조금은 이기적인 점이 필요하다고 느끼지 않니? 장래의 너를 위해서 말이야. がんばれ! …

1992. 10. 21. W로부터의 위문편지 중에서

completely fucked up 0

I really appreciate all of them who willingly spent their precious time with me tonight. The idiot professors sometimes make me crazy or nuts or drive me up the wall just like today, before and after i work here. Today, one of that fucking idiots irritated me all afternoon. That fucking idiot might think that i am the person who can be exploited whenever he needs. I hate his fucking arrogant, selfish, and irresponsible guts. I detest his mother fucking unbelivable beliefs that he can control and order workers like me to do that or not to do that. Shut the fuck up, idiot! What do you expect students can learn from you, idiot? I hate you all!

i smoked 0

I always wondered the smell, the taste, and the feeling after smoking. Finally I smoked. I really really really smoked. (Some of you may not believe, but I did.) Now I know the taste of the cigarette and the smell of cigarette. Also, the bad scent still remained in my fingertips even after I washed my hands several times. The strange dizziness that I felt from the first real pull on the cigarette was actually disgusting me. A couple of minutes later, however, the disgustingness was changed into something different. Something that I have never experienced, have never felt, and will never forget. It must be weird, but not that bad. Actually it was funny funny funny. Shit! Please, somebody stop me!

Once Upon a Time … in Revolution 0

The axiom of Huxley, “the great end of life is not knowledge, but action,” is exactly conformable with what Miranda says below. In human history, anywhere and anytime, (ordinary) people have been exploited under the name of the greatest achievement of the hero. Unfortunately, however, the glory of the success has been occupied by the dictators or powerholders all the time. Think of Alexander. Everybody remembers him as “the greatest emperor in the world.” But he also was the self-righteous dictator who willingly sacrifice their people in order to complete his conquest toward the East. Or this can be adapted to anyone next to you, who has the absolute power!

A revolution is not a dinner party, or writing an essay, or painting a picture, or doing embroidery; It cannot be so refined, so leisurely and gentle, so temperate, kind, courteous, restrained and magnanimous. A revolution is an insurrection, an act of violence by which one class overthrows the other.

- Mao Tse Tung

The people who read books go to the people who can’t read books and say “We have to have a change.” So the poor people make the change. Then the people that read the books sit around big tables and talk and talk and talk and eat and eat and eat. But what has happened to the poor people? They’re dead! That’s your revolution. Shh… So, please, don’t tell me about revolutions. And what happens afterwards? The same fucking thing starts all over again.

- Juan Miranda

Then what about the revolution? Is it indispensable? Just like that the true democracy might not exist, I do not believe that there might be the real revolution. As clearly described from Mao’s exerption in the first scene of the movie, the revolution is the feud or the conflict between two classes; the upper and the lower. Also clearly shown in his definition, its purpose is to defeat one class in order for the other class to usurp the reigns of government. Therefore, the revolution is the process of begetting new power group. There can never be any changes except for the advent of new leader. Just as Freire worried about in “The Pedagogy of the Oppressed”, in this circumstance, the oppressed reproduce the oppressor or the oppressed. In other words, history circulate itself on and on just like a wheel does.

In Leone’s film, therefore, it is difficult to expect the success of revolution. Why is that? As inferred from Juan’s lines above, I believe that Leone purposely did not show the success or the failure of the revolution, because it could instigate or discourage the audience before they give it a try. This makes this film more powerful, meaningful, and convincing. I mean that the assertion of Leone is very far from the political propaganda, which would shout at people to wake up and prepare for the fight. Therefore, the liberty of the illiterate, the oppressed, or the poor was not what he intended to mention in this film. Instead, I believe that Leone tried to provide people with an opportunity to reflect themselves, revolutionists who struggle to change themselves, the society, or the world.

Another Story of Election 0

I also believe that teachers can exploit their students in order to keep their position or power and thus to oppress newly rising powerholders, as shown in Paul’s case. Furthermore, as shown in Tracy’s case, teachers can deliberately ignore students and their abilities, presupposing that they can never be harmonious with others. Those teachers are more dangerous in that they can ruin students’ whole life due to the teachers’ prejudice. Surprisingly, they hate some students without any special reasons. There must be some reasons - too personal or completely selfish. Isn’t that symbolic violence?

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